ALL I CAN DO IS CRY
SHE CAME INTO MY LIFE
AND LEFT LIKE A CANDLE
ON THE SEASHORE
ALL I WANTED WAS HER
FOREVER
NOW I AM LEFT ALL ALONE
Yeah she was a girl, the only girl I knew on earth. She was mine I thought, life was truly awesome then, I thought it was forever. I drowned in her within no time, all I thought was about her and her. The time I spent with her eluded me quickly than never before. She was really beautiful, for sure she was something God would have been proud to make her. Naah, I didn’t have lust on her, all I needed was her and her hand I love to hold her hand and walk right into the heaven. Her thoughts though already filled me and my heart.
First love is something always one cherishes even on his death-bed with a grin at least he had a girl to boast of in his life, and me, it has made gravity lose its morale to pull anyone down.I EVER WAS ON CLOUD NINE when ever I talked to her, I cursed GOD for creating time.
“OK SIDDHARTH, BYE I WILL TALK TO YOU TOMORROW”
That was the first thing I didn’t want from her every night.
She was my self-confidence, my self belief, and what not.....man she was my everything...Her ALL THE BEST was the best in this world, rather, every world........
A day came she bid adieu to her home, my heart, I didn’t stop her ...they say
“SET THE BIRD IN YOUR HAND FREE IF IT COMES BACK IT IS YOURS ,IF NOT IT WAS NEVER YOURS”
After few hard months the bird came back to me, I knew she was ever mine,and mine and JUST mine I loved her more than ever she became more dear to me and near too every other second I thought was her and only her life became a river overflowing with her presence and the joy would never betray my emotions after all I HAD SOMEONE WHO I ALWAYS WANTED !!!!! Her words were everything. LOVE makes you forget everything in this world and to make the matters worse it was born once again
An unprecedented day came ,I least excepted,she talked to me one last time and said ,“Sid,I know you love me a lot”,I was still silent ,before every disaster there is silence,”I’m in a relationship with some other guy ...his name is Manoj”
I leave it to my readers to imagine the feeling running in me and my heart,IT WAS AN ACID LINE FROM HER DIRECTED TOWARDS MY VEINS.To make my feelings worse she continued,pretty much trying to sooth me ,“Sid,I’m not right for you, you are a nice guy and right guy for any girl,please forget me,all I want from you is you should have a nice career and job”I was just like stone,she continued”you will find a better girl than me and I will always be there for you as a friend” The last line was an icing on the poison cake. It makes me wonder how girls would actually pull off such situations with much ease. Girls are the easily the best actors on the earth.(OSCARS TO YOU ALL GIRLS OUT THERE)
I wandered in me, in search of the reason, of the mistake of mine (I believe it was my mistake),I still wandered like air in answer of one simple question-HOW THE HELL A BOY WOULD LOSE A GIRL TWICE WHOM HE TRULY LOVED?, really baffling to say the least, funny is life isn’t it?? It is never straight, life is like a spinning sphere,where you are placed at the equator,and are asked to reach the pole in a straight path and if you by mistake reach it you still aren’t stable and you still spin!!!!hee hee pretty amusing by any standard........
One day I met her at a coffee shop, she was in her mesmerizing green what you call it as salwar….she was quite terrific.The was not doctored just by chance.she some how remembered great, “so how is life ???”her direct question to me first , I noded still looking into my coffee, my mind was fully running with her thoughts, time I spent with her, calls we had it was flowing it is hard to keep those feelings dumped in a corner of your heart…….she opened her hand bag man she had the whole world in it lipstick,gloss,comb,face cream but wow she never misses her bindi .we exchanged numbers ,obviously I am not going to call her, who in the world would like to wake his troubled past?she was about to leave my heart betrayed me and I asked”why did you break up with me?”my eyes were on my feet , she too feel silent, she replied “siddharth I want you to forget it and I only know that im happy and want you to be also”
“JUST SHUT UP AND ANSWER ME”
She was gazing into my eyes and said “honestly I don’t know why I ditched I’m sorry” I felt cold even my feet were ,
“I KNOW IM A BITCH PLEASE FORGIVE ME”
I slapped her and all of a sudden my eyes were leaking just like her,my feet couldn’t bear me and I fell on my knees. i couldn’t see anything except her, who grew smaller in my eyes as she was moving away from me.
ALL I CAN DO IS CRY
